Talking to myself

JUST FEEL BETTER
Carlos Santana feat. Steven Tyler

She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If I'm coming or I'm going
It's not how I planned it
I've got the key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
Because it never worked before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do..

You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping...

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have a season
Round and Round it goes
And every day's the one before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God! I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

I'm tired of holding on
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah.....

I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God! I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better....

Alone.

Sik tauk pahal, but I felt like I'm all alone in this earth for a while. Mak pun lom call. Adik pun sama. Nya? Sometimes jak. Sms pun dah kurang. I felt like I'm totally useless now. Maybe everybody got their own heavy luggages now, and disembarked me off their flight. It's okay... ( pandey kecik ati aku eh...hehehe )

NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME.
NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME.
NOBODY CARES ABOUT ME.
BECAUSE I AM NOBODY??
I THOUGHT THAT I AM SOMEBODY FOR SOMEONE...
OR IS IT THAT SOMEONE HAVE FOUND SOMEBODY?
SO, WHAT ABOUT ME?

Teringin nak kembali pada saat-saat indah kdak marek dolok, sikpat lupak bah... hahaha selalu senyum2 kambin, terkekek-kekek tetak, loyar sampey tengah malam ... time ya sekda apa-apa masalah yang berlaku. Tapi, Allah Maha Mengetahui. Segala yang terjadi, dah di takdirNya ... Tp Tuhanku, Mungkinkah HATI aku tok jadi tempat untuknya SINGGAH SEBENTAR??? Or AKU YANG MENJADI BATU PENGHALANG??

P.S I Love You......

Apa salah aku sampey jadi camtok??

Bukan market sahaja yang lembab...

The Star

"KLCI closes below 1,000 points for first time in two years"

PETALING JAYA: The KL Composite Index (KLCI) dropped below the psychologically important 1,000-point mark for the first time in almost two years as worsening financial turmoil in the United States sapped global investors’ appetite.

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Well, the news headline did just enough to scare investors and market players . This is a pain in the ass for people like us - as the financial planners to look for investors. As quick as lightning strikes, our Malaysians spread the words that we're going to face the WORST RECESSION ERA IN HISTORY, most probably most difficult ever than the 1997-1998 crises. Yeap, MAYBE - but it's not happening yet!!

Some of our Malaysian fellows thinks that they're "smart" when they're able to discuss about financial crises. They talk and talk and talk about economic issues everywhere. By putting the fear in the air, they actually shitting themselves and their friends, right down to their faces.

They didn't know much (or anything) about economic research or market analysis but talking like a fund manager! Even people like myself yang dah masak dengan sepak-terajang & roller-coaster trends of the financial world still need to learn and understand more about economics! Aku kedirik pun takut mok discuss apa-apa info. Aku sik tauk future stock market mcm ney. Aku takut aku salah. But how come this 'smart' people can provide so much information and ASSUMPTIONS better than our market analysts or fund managers?? Do they keep the correct fact or just manipulating stories? OMG, help me to vanish this type of people to another planet.

KEJADIAN DI WARONG MAKAN

Alihbahasa oleh: Aszzrusty himself.

Actually ada sebab nyuroh aku geram gilak ya. Marek bah, time aku tengah makan rah cgek warong di area bukit bintang tok, tang ada lah duak orang pakcik lepeh datang ke sia, nait motosikal kapcai. Dudok minum ngan kawan-kawan tek, then loyar2. Sik lamak lekak ya, TELINGA aku menangkap bunyi dak ya menganok Broker & Remisier Saham, Consultants and Personal Financial Planners like us!! Ney ndak telinga aku merah jak nahan rasa mendengar. Adakah patut sidak ya madah manusia kdak kamek orang tok GILA DENGAN DUIT ORANG? Time ekonomi merudum pun gik maseh suroh invest? Tek palat menaaaa.... sah yang ktk org ya sik tauk apa-apa!!! Sekati jak eh!!

Daripada dudok kedey kopi berjam-jam, buang masa discuss pasal menda yang kita sik tauk, better polah bisnes ka, carik duit lebih ka...iboh nak jadi PART TIME MARKET ANALYST bah... Sik ingga kah ktk org nenga bunyi org kakar di kedey kopi, tapi loyar hal duit JUTA -JUTA? Padahal yang sebenarnya dakya sedang membuang masa? Okay, need to be clear here - PASARAN SAHAM ADALAH MELIBATKAN BUYING AND SELLING PRICE. Ingin jak aku nak madah kedak tok bah, tp aku sik pandey nak kurang ajar ngan org tua:

Pakcik, keadaan nya macam tok, sebenarnya kalau zaman gawat kelak, harga pasaran akan turun. Contohnya, mun aku dapat beli OTAK PAKCIK awal-awal dengan harga RM0.20 sen sebijik, kakya aku tunggu sampey market stabil balit, baruk aku jual OTAK PAKCIK ya dengan rega RM2.00 pas ya..ya pun bergantung pada harga latest pasaran. So, kan aku untong senang-senang jak RM1.80 sen?? Yalah maksudnya pelaburan. Pakcik paham???

BUY LOW AND SELL HIGH = PROFIT!

Selling price - Buying price = Profit

Jadi, kepada pakcik-pakcik yang hebat itu, (hehe macam la sidak baca blog aku!)acquire yourself dengan knowledge lok sikit before nak nganok. At least, sik la nampak gilak kebodohan tahap maksima ya kan.Coba dengar apa di padah Fund Manager yang sebenar:

The Star

"Investors, especially retail players, have lost their appetite for stocks for quite some time,'' a fund manager at a local asset management company said.

Bak kata orang Sarawak:

Jangan engkah pasir lam periok nasik orang lain oi!!

Planet of the roaches!!

I can't stop laughing while I'm writing this entry. Just imagine this...

In your first stay at your new house, suddenly it appears to be that a big CLAN OF COCKROACHES including papa, mama and maybe their grandma - welcoming and greeting your arrival at the kichen. By spreading themselves around the kitchen place, they provoked that you have entered a wrong place, and justifying the way their behave seems like they're showing off to you that nobody's afraid of your presence in their neighbourhood, even IN THE MORNING!! What do you feel then?

hey dude!!! wassup!!!

InsyaAllah semuanya akan okay. Syukur Alhamdulillah.

Obstacles

I remember of reading somewhere about Shah Jahan's hair turned white within a week after the death of his wife, Mumtaz Mahal. (Yeap, Shah Jahan. The Moghul ruler who ordered his people to build Taj Mahal to remember his wife). Is it possible? I mean, your hair from black to white - in just a week?? Mmg gilababsss the effect of kesedihan yang teramat sangat. Sik mok sedih-sedih eh!!

Well,since we're talking about marriage and relationship here, I need to address that sometimes I feel that we shouldn't always dream of the best days only. Be prepared for action! Because challenges may anytime come and go in a relationship. And sometimes we will never get to know the whole truth about something. Because God has a plan for us. Or perhaps God is saving us from more hurt. For if we were to know the "remaining truth", then we will just feel numb and silent forever.

Distance + Time + Other obstacles :

...Always conspire to keep us apart from the one that we love the most.... Many unpleasant things may happen where we need to put our shoulder on the wheels. Face the problem wisely. Don't go for short cuts! Despite of eating my own heart alive, I just need to be more patient. I hope somehow things will get better soon. Coz I know there's a light at the end of the tunnel!

May Allah be with me,

"Wahai Tuhan yang Maha membolak-balikkan hati, kuatkanlah hatiku agar keyakinanku tidak berubah, supaya hambaMu ini sentiasa tabah mengharungi segalanya...Tuhan, engkau kurniakanlah aku, perasaan ada rahmat Mu yang melindungi diriku, agar aku tidak merasa sepi dalam hidup ini...Sesungguhnya yang terbaik itu datang dariMu jua"

Amin Ya Rabbal 'Alamin.

_God, please help me to walk on this earth if I were destined to walk the journey alone. I can't live this life without her. It's killing me_

For you..

To the most important WOMAN in my life, Zulfa.. this one's for you.

WOMAN

By: John Lennon

Woman I can hardly express
My mixed emotions at my thoughtlessness
After all I'm forever in your debt


And woman I will try to express
My inner feelings and thankfulness
For showing me the meaning of success


Woman I know you understand
The little child inside of the man
Please remember my life is in your hands


And woman hold me close to your heart
However distance don't keep us apart
After all it is written in the stars


Woman please let me explain
I never meant to cause you sorrow or pain
So let me tell you again and again and again


I love you,
Now and Forever

I love you
Now and Forever

I love you
Now and Forever

Find Your Niche

" To find out what one is fitted to do, and to secure an opportunity to do it,
is the key to happiness"

John Dewey

American Philosopher

I believe that we are all good for something. Really!! The key is to pinpoint it, work at it and hone at it, and sell yourself to others! THERE IS POTENTIAL IN EVERYBODY. The question is, have you found yours and have you tapped into its maximum potential?

Firstly, I wish I could shift beyond this paradigm that our career or occupation must be in sync with our degree and relevant to whatever we studied for years in university. Come on!! Just take a look at Jeff Bezos, the founder and CEO of Amazon.Com. His academic background is in computer science and electrical engineering, not business! But that didn't stop him and he charted success and created history. So don't let this mindset stop you from taking the plunge and following a different path.

As for me, it's never about the exams and not everything is about producing excellent grades nowadays. Schools, universities and even our places of work are locations of discovery :

- where you discover yourself, identify your niche and seek opportunities-

Nobody cares about your grades when you enter a boardroom full with company CEO's and Directors to do a project proposal presentation. To come up with a decision, then they need to value how good is your proposal truly are. They want to know what is your limits. They're eager to know what is your weaknesses are. They wouldn't ask where did you graduated or so. Because that's the real world now. Thus I admit that the method of judgement always differ from one person to another.

BILL RANCIC

(The Apprentice Season 1 WINNER)

In the show, THE APPRENTICE, the contestants was divided into two categories: BOOK SMART and STREET SMART. My business idol, Bill Rancic was a street smart and he won the contest. This is my point:

" While formal schooling is an important advantage, it is not a guarantee for success nor is its absence a fatal handicap"

RAY KROC
(Founder of the McDonald's Corporation)

So, my dear friends and readers, let us take a moment now to reflect on our skills, talents and abilities. What is that you are good at or are aspiring to excel in? Well, I already found my niche and I hope I could discover more about myself soon. I'm hitting the big time with consultation and negotiation marketing. I don't possess a degree at all! But I am firmly believe in the importance of education. How about you? I'm sure you are far better than me. Go and discover it before it's too late.

Salam Aidilfitri Dari Rantauan

SALAM AIDILFITRI TO ALL

I missed EVERYTHING!
But I missed Nek Timat the most.
Can't forget her delicious cooking di pagi raya!

-- Ayam Manila --
Her very own recipe. Warisan turun-temurun katanya.

I still remember when I asked her a question which seems so funny to her. Moments later,I figured out that the endless laugh was her answer to my silly question.The Q&A session was something like:

ME: "Nek, mek tauk sigek rahsia kitak..." (sigh)

Nek Timat: "Eh, macam-macam ajak.."

ME:"Masa mudak-mudak dolok mesti rami orang laki ngepong kitak kan Nek??"

Nek Timat: " ........" ( smiles)

ME: " Sebab kitak ANGGUN dan PANDEY MASAK nak ooo? "

Nek Timat: " ...Hahahahahahahahahahaha ... "

Darmatasiah Binti Takip
Kampung Narum, Marudi, Miri.

Missed Mak, Bapak & Adik as well. Hope they're havin' a marvellous AidilFitri at Kampong. I'm grateful enough as long as they're happy and keep me close to their heart . Anything but a sincere smile from Mak would melt me off to the ground now. Gue kangen banget sih..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

p/s: sampey nektok nek timat dikatik Anggun.... hahaha