Me, Myself & Music

I am so excited. So freakin' excited. Alhamdullillah.

"It's Me, myself & Music"

*Big Grin*

Spent almost 8 hours at my friend's studio at Damansara today. He's a pop music producer and a good friend of Faizal. We talked a lot. We laughed a lot. We shared a lot. And we smoked a lot...Gosh! Today's absolutely fun for me, until my head started to ache. Later in the evening, I ended up bringing his Ibanez RG series back home..and his Marshall amplifier too! Thanks dude..my guns were loaded and I'm ready for war now. har! har! har!



So, what's cooking for me? I can't tell for sure but anyway, me and my friend decided to start a new 'Rock' project soon.

"For experimental purposes only".

Seems the chemistry is there on both of us and he got a few but BIG "cables" in the industry as well. I promised him to bring my stuffs for demo next week. Really excited as I was in the perfect mood to write songs lately.

" Mood aku: Teringin nak makan KULIT AYAM KFC..teringin sangat-sangat..har!har!har!"

I'm happy that I finally managed to finish my 3rd pop-rhythmic song yesterday, simply titled 'Rahsia Hatimu'...good for collection and storage..but yet still not satisfied with my works, *SIGH* because I think I lacked the commercial quality..


So far, I'm experimenting with the elements of Britrock, Jazz-Fusion and Free Pop. But to be exact, I only got 4 malay songs completed which titled: Kamu Saja, Dia Takkan Tahu, Analogi Tragedi, and Rahsia Hatimu. Since I was 16, I always wished that I could release my own songs someday and now I'm going near to my dreams. I'm gonna make it happen. For those who keep on supporting me, thanks a lot! Anyway, I'll leave it in the hands of God.

The bottomline is: music is my passion. No matter what I do, nobody could take the passion out of me. I may be a businessperson, but the music is always inside of me.

~~ I may have nobody, but the music is always there with me ~~

"Wherever the wind blows....."

Here to stay

Guys, this is my latest pop/jazz song. Composed it last night. I'll come with the tablature soon. Thanks for viewing.

Title: HERE TO STAY
Tuning: Standard EADGBE/Capo 1st Fret
Song/Lyrics: AszZ_Rusty


*Verse*
You buried me... down underneath
Baby you know... it's hard for me to breathe
You hate all the bad things... inside of me
And she told you... to stay away from me?
The way you treated me... like I'm your enemy?
Have you erased everything... about me?

*Bridge*
I'm desolated
When you rendered me isolated
Baby now let me resonate...

*Chorus*
Every night... I pray
Not sure if I... am able to move straight
Coz I don't believe we've gone astray
I really need you... here to stay
Right here to stay...
Just here to stay...

*Verse 2*
You're always there... when I'm down
But you, you're not there... when I'm blown
Girl, now I'm taking on this world alone
Watching your footprints... fade on the ground

*Bridge*
I'm desolated
When you rendered me isolated
Baby now let me resonate...

*Chorus*
Every night... I pray
Not sure if I... am able to move straight
'Cause I don't believe we've gone astray
I really need you... here to stay
Right here to stay...
Just here to stay...

*Verse 3/Bridge*
Now can you see?
All that you did to me
Finally brings out... the best of me

Insomniac

Fuuuh ~_~

Mengikut kiraan saintifik dan jitu, aku baru sahaja berjaya menghabiskan Marlboro Intense yang ke-26 batang untok hari ini. Ya, aku merokok dengan hebat lagi. Kembali menjadi perokok tegar. Tindakan yang agak tolol bukan? Aku dapati dua biji mata ini maseh lagi segar dan langsung tiada tanda-tanda mengantuk walaupun jika diikutkan, aku memang penat gila gaban hari ini. Mungkin effect dari Marlboro Intense tersebut. Rokok setan kata sahabatku. Well, memang 'taste' nya agak keras sedikit. Heavy.

Ya, KERAS. Namun bagi aku biasa2 saja jika dibandingkan dgn beban yang berselirat di dlm otakku di kala ini. Gambarannya seperti wayar-wayar yang berserabut dalam CPU komputer kat opis aku. Brader technician yang disuruh utk betulkan dan update komputer belum juga muncul walaupun bos aku dah mengamuk last week. Beliau memang degil. Mungkin kerana bos aku belum lagi berkesempatan untuk menghayun keyboard komputer ke muka beliau. Segala proses di ofis menjadi lembab sbb PC2 suma lembab..Bila segalanya lembab, aku juga turut melembabkan diri... Tapi bos aku masih seperti biasa, sentiasa panas!


Kembali kepada realiti. Pukul 330 pagi nanti aku bersama teman2 serumah, Bro Shaz, Zeem dan Im, akan turun ke kedai mamak kat bawah untuk menonton UEFA match. Budak2 ni suma sokong Real Madrid cuma aku saja parti lawan, Liverpool. Sebenarnya, all of us kene bangun awal pagi besok utk pg ofis, tapi disebabkan kesungguhan menonton bola yang begitu memuncak...so semua buat2 okay sahaja. Siap bekal rokok lagi...Hoho!


Lagi satu, aku mendapati bahawa handset aku cuma menerima 6 panggilan, dan 4 sms secara overall untuk hari ini. Yang rajin call aku sejak pagi tadi pun cuma si Zara. Tapi asyik bertanyakan perihal kerja. Si Fion pula lain ceritanya. Ajak aku pegi majlis kahwin member dia hujung minggu ini. Dan baki panggilan seterusnya adalah dari sahabat juga housemate aku yang agak gila-gila unta ataupun senak-senak tapir sebab masih tak bayar lagi sewa rumah bulan ini. Mungkin beliau dah stress di tengah-tengah bulan sebegini. Namun begitu, pada bulan lepas, beliau mampu sponsor girlfriend beliau membeli sebuah Iphone baru. Siap tunjuk2 lagi depan aku, mentang-mentangla aku hanya pakai telefon biasa2 sahaja. Tapi malangnya, beliau mengalami sindrom senak-senak tapir di kala ini sbb dah kena sound ngan tuan rumah kitorang. Pedih dan sadis kan?....


Arakian, begitulah sahaja update aku untok hari ini. Semoga aku dapat melelapkan mata sebentar sebelum turun menonton perlawanan bola sekejap lagi. Aku sedar bahawa aku telah menggunakan bahasa "melayu baku kacukan" kali ini, dan mungkin tidak begitu sedap kedengaran tatkala anda membaca coretan ini. Sungguhpun begitu, aku menganggap ianya agak klasikal dan unik. Mungkin entri-entri selepas ini, aku akan teruskan menulis dalam gaya begini. Sekian. Terima kasih kerana membaca. Anda sedar betapa "skema" nya penulisan aku kali ini? Sekian dan terima kasih sekali lagi...

Tragic

Last night, I dreamt about her again and keep thinking bout it the whole day. I kept saying to myself, "This is reality" over and over again. (Gosh! Why is it so hard to let it go? God, help me..)

Around 4pm, my old friend called and told me a shocking, unbelievable news of the day. As soon as I picked up the phone, I could hear nothing but an uncomfortable silence. SHE was crying... so I already knew that something really bad happened to her in the first place.I let her cry for a moment. Then the sad conversation begun...

I was stunned and helpless....

- She argued with her ex-boyfriend on her birthday (which is yesterday..)
- He wants her back, and begged to her.(Brought flowers and cards to her mom's house)
- She refused and threw all the flowers and cards away..(never read them at all..)
- Her Ex went back home..alone in the rain.
- On the journey home, he involved in an accident and admitted to ICU.
- He passed away in the morning. Al-Fatihah.
- She never had the chance to say "I'm sorry.."

She never thought that this horrible tragedy would happen. She regretted it so much and hoped that she could turn back the time. She didn't even read what's inside those cards as it was the last messages that her ex wrote to her. Her feelings for him is still there, but she ignored it: Ego & dissatisfaction ruled her heart. Now, there's nothing more to say. It's fated. So, my friend... I hope you'll be strong to face this. You always got me and others to help you. Things happen for a reason. Don't lose this battle because we'll be there for you. I got lost once and I know how it feels. I can't forgive myself if anything bad happen to my loved ones. May Allah bless us all.


"Ya Allah, jika dia memang milikku...
Maka dekatkanlah hatiku dengan hatinya...
Dan jika dia bukan untukku..
Maka tenangkanlah hatiku dengan ketentuanMu...
Kerana aku yakin takdirMu adalah yang terbaik untuknya...
Amin ya Rabbal Alamiin

Selamat Menyambut Maulidur Rasul